The weather is cold, and awesome.The sky is awesome.The food I ate for breakfast this morning was awesome.Today is going to be awesome....It really is amazing though how a switch in perspective changes everything. The weather is cold, and …

Hungry.Lonely.Anxious.It's an intense mix of loneliness, anxiety, hunger, jealousy, frustration, angst, exhaustion, pain...Like the floodgates of feeling have opened and the only thing behind them was Pandora's box.If I stay home I'll prob…

I had a realization.My life isn't going to change.I'll back up a bit and give some context.When I was looking for a career, I went to my Patriarchal blessing. I was convinced that the answer would be there. And, sure enough, there's a para…

I fully intended to share everything about my appointment with my bishop. Going in, I felt overwhelmed, disappointed, anxious, and somewhat hopeful. Speaking with him and then blogging about it felt like an awesome opportunity to share my …

I meet with my bishop today. And I'm preparing as much humility as I can.My best friend asked what I would be willing to change. If I'd be willing to never meet with anyone I don't know again - to take myself off the roll of emotional / sp…

I realize that having just messed with my life makes anything I say pretty suspect. But I've had these thoughts long before last night.Connection comes from a multitude of different sources. But one major source is cultural identity. It's …

I want to start by simply saying I am sorry. More sorry than I have ever been.One of the major tenets of the Church culture I want to someday see realized is a universal expectation of authenticity. To have each guy get to Elder's Quorum a…

This post is long. And convoluted. But I've needed to post it for a long time now... and I finally have at least something down... so please forgive the mess that is here. I suggest reading it in parts.Part 1:I always wondered why so many …

There's a popular painting of Christ carrying a lamb on His shoulders. For a long time, that painting has inspired me. Knowing that Christ was willing to go out into the desert, search in the wilderness, and go anywhere to find a lamb who …

If I'm gay.Warning. This is a heavy post.I've worked at BYU as a curriculum designer. I'm a BYU graduate, twice. My license plate says BYU on it. My best friend attends BYU. But just today I learned about something that has given me cause …

There's something awesomely magical about watching a Disney film unfold. Over and over and over again, the protagonist faces life's struggles with head held high. Reaching deep inside, he (well, usually she) learns something new, overcomes…

My aunt posted a photo on Facebook about her emotions watching her son prepare to leave for college.And I feel torn.I'm grateful for the rare glimpse into someone else's life. For the emotional connection it gives me.I still feel torn.The …